I had a conversation this past Sunday with my Sunday school class about the difference between making something and creating something. Making means you have all the ingredients at your disposal. You “make” a loaf of bread you don’t create it. To create means to make something out of nothing. What I didn’t realize during that conversation was how God would bring that idea back around to me this week.
I said the usual good night to my boys last night, “I love you, Everett”. He responded, as he sometimes does “I love you more.”
“Not possible” I replied. “How do you know?” he joked with me.
“Because I grew you inside of me” was my response. And in my heart I felt it…at that moment…the enormity of that statement… Because I heard your heart beat before you did. Because I felt your tiny fluttered movements before you could hear sound or perceive light. Because I knew when you slept, and when you were awake even before you took your first breath.
What a glimpse of the glory and magic of creation God has given us with our children, and what a gift he has given to us as women. Within our bodies, and as couples we are given a gift…the ability to create something from nothing.
And as I think about how intense and enormous my love for my children is, I can’t help but also reflect on the intensity, the enormity, the gloriousness of God’s love for us, his children (something created out of nothing). As that awareness washed over me last night, I suddenly found a peace.
God is with me. Always.
This journey that I have been on this year is all a part of his plan for me. True, I can’t always see how, but I refuse to believe that it will be anything but beautiful. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring, but do any of us ever really? All we can do is put our trust in our heavenly Father and believe that He has far more control over our outcomes than we ever could. We can take comfort in the many and abundant ways He reaches out to us constantly, to show us how much he loves us. And I truly believe that children are one of his biggest gifts to us, because they give us a glimpse at what it truly means to love completely and unconditionally.
This isn’t the first time I’ve featured this video on my blog, but I can’t help but feel it’s appropriateness for today.