February has been an interesting month for me. All through January I was feeling a bit confused because I hadn’t really felt God calling me to write my blog and I didn’t understand why. I felt as if I was doing something wrong, or maybe I was letting him down. Then at the end of the month the reason became crystal clear. We made the decision to pull our youngest out of the public school system and take on the job of home schooling him.
I feel as if I should tell you that it was a difficult decision. It wasn’t. For the last seven years (he was in grade 5 this year) I have told every teacher that he is our square peg and school is his round hole. Each September I sit down and try to provide the teacher with strategies to help him succeed and ask that she/he keep the lines of communication open so that I can do my part at home. This year I hit the wall. His teacher told me that it was pointless for him to study for tests because he wouldn’t remember any of it anyway a couple of days later. WHAT??!!! I mean that’s basically how I got through first year university. But what a defeatest attitude from the woman who is responsible for my child?! That was the moment I knew that we were done.
So for the past two and a half weeks I have been working with Isaac every morning. We’ve gone backwards a few steps to make sure he really has his basics (especially in math), but we can also go forwards as fast as he is capable of. And let me tell you…the difference I have noticed in him has been nothing short of miraculous. My child who couldn’t sit still or be quiet for five minutes sits at my counter, head down, getting his work done. Sure he talks every once in a while, but the difference from day one to now is remarkable. At his riding lesson last Thursday he spent the entire time focused and paying attention. If you didn’t know better you’d think I’d put him on medication.
So why am I writing this? Because I am so grateful to God for calling me to take a step back from one thing in preparation for the next big change in our lives. We’ve hired a nanny to spend afternoons with him so I can get some work done, and we have fun Friday’s where we learn science and do art.
But the thing I want to really call attention to is how God provides and has provided for me. Prior to taking on home schooling anyone of my friends would tell you that I was a busy woman. I would have told you the same thing and no way did I have hours of free time each morning. But when you trust in God, he provides you with everything you need. It took almost no time to get into a routine that gave me time to work with Isaac, time to write my stories, and time for me to exercise, ride, spend time with Dave, with friends. God is so amazing and so good to me, and I want to give him all the praise and glory in this because I know without him this would not be possible. I would not feel so calm and relaxed. I simply could not do it.
When you listen to what God is calling you to do; when you open yourself up to Him…He will always show you the way. He is so good and He has great plans for you. I know that he has great plans for Isaac and that this was the next step that he needed us to take to make sure he reaches his true potential.
Where in your life is God calling you? Maybe it’s a financial decision, a career change, or a deeper relationship with the God. Are you listening? Do you trust in him to provide?
I want to share these words with you from my bible reading today. “Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and your plans will succeed.” Proverbs 16:3
The other part of my reading that really spoke to my heart today was this. “You are my God, and I will give you thanks, you are my God and I will exalt you.” Psalm 118:28
Are you missing out on letting God act in your life with power and love? Are you missing out on a chance to exalt Him? Claim Him as your God and let Him do more than you can ask or imagine in your own life.
I’ll leave you today with a Zach Williams song that shares some of these same words. YOU’RE MY GOD!!!