Last night I watched the most incredible documentary/movie on Netflix. It was called “The Heart of Man”…the story of the prodigal son.
I don’t know how to describe this movie. It is so incredibly well shot. The imagery is perfectly balanced and poignant. While the movie focuses specifically on an addiction, it’s messages about shame, and the darkness we feel when we believe our behavior will bring God’s judgement upon us, are messages that we all need to hear.
As someone who has been open about my own journey about not living up to expectations and guilt, the idea of letting go of the shame of not being the perfect person you think God wants you to be is liberating and powerful, and although part of my journey this month has been embracing this, I feel as if this movie reiterated that point for me.
I want to share with you with a few quotes that I found especially powerful and the Cory Asbury song from the end of the movie.
“I wonder if one of the greatest truths that I and men like me might hear is that God is with me in my darkness, that God is with me in my shame, and that He’s with me in my addiction, in my pain, in my unsettledness, in my woundedness, that I don’t want anybody else to see.”
” When He calls us a saint, he makes an incredible statement about us, we are no longer defined by being a sinner…and we have a choice. I can continue on the way I have been going, or I can make a choice, in time, when I say God, this is who you say I am. I am Your beloved and I am new, and I am good.”
“The way home, every single time, is this. After my worst failure, after I am convinced this time I have gone too far and destroyed too much, I must believe who God says I am. I am not defined by my erratic behaviors, but by something so much deeper, infinitely strong, and constant. I am a new creature.”