I’m stealing the title of a Zack Williams song tonight for my blog because I can’t come up with any better way to saying how I feel.
January has been a month of crossroads and revelations for me personally and, I think, in some ways for our family as well. This month I have had to make difficult decisions about some of my personal relationships. This month I have struggled with a wavering belief in my own sense of competency. This month I have been faced with choices of motherhood or career.
But this month, as I promised myself I would, I persevered in my faith. In times where I felt distant from God, I didn’t lay blame…not on myself, or on God. In times when I felt low, I focused on my heavenly Father. I stuck to my daily bible study of praise and repeating and believing in my heart the idea and mantra, “Praise the Lord, O my soul.” And, as he promised I would, in his time, I can clearly see God’s work in my life over the last month.
I can honestly say that January is a month in which I’ve had to made difficult decisions, but I have done them with a prayerful heart, filled with thanksgiving for the blessings God has given me. And today God revealed how he has been working for me, even when I was unaware. God is so good…so good to me.
If you are reading this blog and thinking to yourself, I know exactly how you feel, Meredith, then I am so thankful that you have come to know our Lord. But if you are reading this and wishing that you could have this too; this knowledge, this certainty that God is working in your heart, in your life…then tonight is the night I tell you that you absolutely can. You aren’t joining a cult, you aren’t going to lose who and what you are and you definitely don’t need to be afraid. Fear is evil’s way of keeping you from knowing God.
If you want to know the certainty that I have experienced this month, then I give you Romans 8:31. “What then shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us?” WHO CAN BE AGAINST US!!! God is for all of us. For you and for me. He is just waiting for you to open the door of your heart and invite him in.
Meredith (Here is the audio track for that Zack Williams song below)