There’s been a lot going on in my life lately and today was a classic example. In fact, there were events in my life today that in other times would have put me into a spiral of self-loathing “I’m not good enough” and “why do You bother with me, I’m an awful person”. But I read a sermon earlier this week that spoke about God’s smile and it really stuck with me. Even though today I felt stressed out and frenetic, I also felt that God was doing everything he could to make my life easier and I was so thankful and so grateful. I love those days…days when I can actively see God’s hand in my life and appreciate it. There are certainly days when I don’t feel that way…but I have enough of the days when I do, to carry me through and help me to trust God’s plan for my life.
Today was the day I had set aside to renew the passport of our oldest son, Hayden who is now 18. The only problem is that he is 18, with the ability of a toddler to make decisions for himself. I was totally convinced that we would arrive at the passport office only to be sent away to get an identification card or something because now he is applying for an adult passport and he doesn’t have a driver’s license…for obvious reasons. To my incredible surprise, the passport office was empty (thank you Jesus) and we were expedited. I can’t speak highly of how patient the passport Canada staff was and well treated Hayden was. We were in and out with time to spare. And let me tell you, I absolutely count that as a blessing. From doctor’s appointments to appointments at the barbershop, I felt as if I was chasing my tail today. But everything worked out as it was meant to, and my family picked me up and loved me even in my stressed out state. And I knew that it wasn’t just my family that had my back…it was God.
And then this evening I had a conversation with the artist who is working on my current Creator-owned project, about our next project. It is not possible to manufacture the type of synergy we have. And just as I believe that our coming together for our current project was divinely inspired, I absolutely believe that our next project will be as well.
I wish that everyone had God in their lives, if only to know that there is someone in their corner who not only loves them unconditionally, but who has their back. We are talking about the God who raised Lazarus from the dead. He knows exactly what you need, exactly when you need it and he is a God of joy. He wants you to be happy. And I think that bears repeating. He doesn’t want you to walk around feeling guilty or worrying about sin…He wants you to be happy; to know joy and to know that, just as much, or even more so than you want happiness for the people in your life that you love, He wants the same for you.
What I don’t know is the path true faith will take for you. For me it was a journey of decades. It was reading C.S. Lewis and George MacDonald and going to church on a regular basis. But what I absolutely believe, is that if God is calling your name, you don’t need to find your path to him… he will light up the way like an airplane runway so that you can’t miss landing exactly where he wants you to be. All you have to do is listen to the air-traffic controller in your heart.