I’m struggling right now. We all have them, days when we don’t feel like ourselves, days when we are out of balance. It’s so easy to take the slide down, to allow the negative to win, to focus on everything that is going wrong and allow that to become the definition of my life even if it’s only for a day. To wallow in my misery.
But for some reason this time is different. I keep pushing through, I feel the pressure in my head, but I don’t give in. This time is different. My faith, my relationship with God is different now. It’s grown, matured, deepened since the last time I had a day like this. I cling to the Lord and pray and sing and read my scriptures and even though I still sit at the top, I don’t take the slide. I don’t let the negative win – it can’t win when I have faith, when I trust in Jesus.
“Do not let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, trust also in me.” John 14:1
“Faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1
Yesterday and today I am sure of what I hope for…to feel and be reassured of God’s love for me, to be lifted up by my Father. I am certain that even though I can’t see him, there is a God in heaven that hears my prayers and will answer them.
“And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.” Hebrews 11:6
I have spent the past year really seeking God. To know and understand his purpose for me and my life. To have faith. And over that time I have been rewarded. I have known indescribable joy on an almost daily basis. I have felt the hand of God upon me and I have faith that this too shall pass. I know that God will lift me up and I will feel the joy and fullness of his love again. We all have times of struggle, but it’s how we deal with those times. It’s about the choices we make. It’s about our faith.