Yesterday Dave and I were cleaning the kitchen after dinner and as I reached into the drawer where we keep our plastic wrap I accidentally cut my finger on the serrated edge of the parchment paper box. Don’t ask me how, because I couldn’t actually tell you, but all of a sudden instead of cleaning up the kitchen, I was having to clean up myself.
As I prepared to write this blog today, I was thinking about my poor finger and worried about how much it was going to hurt to type on. Funny how sometimes the smallest cuts, depending on where we get them, (paper cuts are the worst) can hurt more than deep ones.
And that started me thinking about people who are walking around with wounds on their hearts. I’ve been there myself. Broken and scarred. Scared and angry. Maybe you are one of those people. Maybe you’ve done something, or had something done to you that has left a wound on your heart that won’t go away. Something that keeps you from living fully and completely.
I am certainly not going to claim to have all of the answers and I don’t have a degree in psychology, but I have learned that the more I hold on to my pain….the more pain I have. It’s easy to do. It’s like a rock in the ocean of our heart. We keep rubbing away at it and pretty soon it gets smoother and prettier and harder to let go. But it’s still just a rock and no matter how smooth we rub it, no matter how pretty we make it look, it is still weighing us down.
Psalm 68:10, Psalm 111:5, Acts 14:17
God is our Provider. God provides everything we need to live, not only foot to eat, but also food for our souls. God does not give us things to enjoy life, but He gives us life so we can enjoy all things.
We were made to enjoy life. I said in an earlier post that I believe that as much as God acts as a force for light and love in this world, there is another force acting against God. A force that wants to you live in darkness and pain and fear.
So what am I saying? Give God your fear, your pain, your anger. His love is big enough to take anything and everything you can give him. One of my favorite verses is 1 John 4:18. “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear”. Let God’s perfect love drive out your fear. 1 John 4: 16 “And so we know and rely on the love God has for us.” God is faithful and unchanging and patient. He will be there for you. He will provide for you. You can rely on Him.
I am so thankful that I knew Jesus in my times of crisis and turmoil. That the love of God was a part of my life even then, because I could turn to Him. I could give Him my wounds and my hurt and my anger and His love was big enough to take it. His love was big enough to heal me. I don’t carry a burden of past hurts with me, because God is carrying them for me so that I can enjoy the life He has given me fully and completely.
I’ve said before that I don’t believe that bad things happening are part of God’s plan for us. Just as we would never wish harm or pain upon our children. But I also believe that He has the power to use our suffering and sorrow to our advantage. To draw us closer to him, to share his love with us and perhaps help us to share his love with those around us.
If you are walking around with a wound on your heart, if you are still carrying your stone, no matter how pretty you think it looks, no matter how attached you are to it, it is still weighing you down. I pray that today is the day you give it to God. I pray that you can experience his healing powers just as I have in my life. I pray that you let him heal you so that you can live the life of joy he created you to live, fully and completely. Know and rely on the love of God.